I have written before about my (our) desire to be involved in full time ministry of some sort whether that is through a local church or through missions of some sort not so locally. Both Caleb and I have a heart and passion for global missions and the church that only increases as time goes by.
The past few years have we have learned so much and been able to be involved in a variety of things that will only help us with whatever the future may hold, but to be honest they have mostly seemed like a waiting period. We know what we want to be doing but we are in still waiting for God’s timing. Not always waiting patiently…. Patients isn’t exactly one of my strengths.
It is easy to look back on the past 10 years and think we have been wasting our time, why didn’t we go on to more schooling right away after Bible School or why does God seem to keep closing doors when there is such a need. I know his timing is His own and I cannot see the whole picture but it is hard to really accept that sometimes.
So, my question these past few months has been “how can I best use this time of waiting, what can I do now or study now that might help me when a door finally opens?” Caleb is back in school so he is already working on that, but what about me, what can I do, what should I do? I’ve been asked what I would do if I were to go back to school and honestly my answer isn’t too different from what it was when I was deciding what to do after high school. I didn’t know then and I still don’t know now. Sometimes I think that nursing would be neat but then I realize that I would only really be interested in certain aspects of it; and let’s be honest, I did everything I could in high school to avoid the “boring” sciences/maths. LOL I didn’t take chemistry or geometry or physics or calculous. I did take biology but there were only a few parts of it that I was actually interested in. I have always been interested in Phycology, but I don’t know that that is really for me either. Business is just boring (sorry if you took that, it is great that you did and I am sure it wasn’t boring to you). There are a lot of things I am interested in, but since I get bored so quickly I don’t know that most of them would be worth investing in.
Finally through a lot of reading different books (Restless was a helpful one) I started thinking about becoming a doula. My mom and sister are both doulas so it isn’t a new thing to me, or new for me to consider studying. As a birth photographer the tidbits I have learned from them have been SO helpful and I have gained more insight into the whole process.
I started thinking about what my role might be in future ministry, especially if we do end up in another country. A lot of women don’t have care or support when they deliver their babies, especially overseas. As a doula I won’t be trained in any of the medical aspects of birth but will be trained in more ways to assist moms and alleviate their discomfort etc.
After a lot of time and prayer and thought I finally bit the bullet, paid the fee and started my class. I am excited and a bit nervous. I suddenly feel like I have jumped into this field that I know nothing about despite all that I do know already. I have witnessed a lot of births and helped a lot of moms but suddenly I feel like a newbie. It is exciting and scary and I am so thankful to have two awesome certified doulas in my family who can guide me.
So this is it, my new adventure has begun!